Friday, March 17th, 2006
at some point in our lives,
our paths meet,
then we part ways.
what then becomes of our encounter?
is it just a memory that we’d once experienced together?
will that moment fade away?
whatever the answer is…
i feel like i’ve already been forgotten~
lucky for me,
i’ve got a good memory
thanks…
Friday, March 10th, 2006
every year, my mom gets me to go out into the cold winter.
for what?
to plant seeds, bulbs, flowers.
why?
so in the spring we can enjoy beautiful flowers
tulips to be exact
but it’s always very hard
it takes an insane amount of nagging
before i finally head out.
outside…
the dirt is rock hard.
the air is cold.
my ears freeze
fingers numb
and my shoes always suffer, because shovels ruin shoes
there’s absolutely nothing enjoyable about planting seeds in the winter.
nothing at all!
of course if i had done it earlier it wouldn’t be cold, but that’s not the point
it seemed as if the earth rejected me
it didnt want what i had to give
on top of that, the holes i dug had to be deep
but not too deep
just deep enough for to keep the squirrels away
but shallow enough for the seeds to grow out
it’s a daunting task.
an annual task.
something i can’t seem to get away from.
but always in the spring,
which is pretty close now
flowers sprout like crazy
and i feel that my hardwork has paid off
and every year, i’ll feel satisfied
~
and this year is no exception.
we’re approaching mid-march now.
spring! flowers!
but, this year is different
i saw a flower blossom early
it made me really happy
but this flower is different,
because this flower was actually planted a long time ago.
infact, this seed was planted into the heart of one of my friends
constantly,
i would shower her with prayers
encourage her
talk to her
you know some people actually talk to their plants! that’s crazy
and just the other day she decided to get baptised.
i’m super happy for her.
and when flowers blossom i think it’s the most magical thing in the world
because they are able to display all the efforts that go into them
in a single moment.
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
i wish i could ride on the wind,
go wherever the waves take me,
soar higher than the sun,
cover myself in the blue.
run away from the world.
free myself where the air is pure,
embrace the fear
and fall back onto the wind
i envy the birds. i really do.
aimless; guided by the wind
free
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
in your perfect timing right?
everything i ask for, everything i pray for…
all in your time right?
but, it’s so hard.
especially when i want things to happen right now.
why can’t i be satisfied.
what is the reason that things turn out this way?
where is your presence?
is this really what you want?
why do things turn out this way?
so many questions. so many emotions. meshed together.
who did you prepare for me?
why are my friends walking away from you?
how long will i have to wait?
what are you teaching me?
when will i experience you like i did before?
what should i do?
why do my feelings come between our relationship?
why isn’t it as strong?
i wish i could understand. its all so complicated to me.
but it is becuase i’m in the dark. it probably looks strangly simple to you.
then why…
when…
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
salvation. the saving grace that allows us to commune and fellowship with God in eternity. the reason why Jesus died for our sins. the gift that we recieved.
but is faith alone enough to obtain salvation? or is it faith with adherence to the laws that allow us to recieve salvation?
can a believer claim to have salvation but continue to break both the laws of men and the laws of God?
can a criminal be saved by faith alone?
of course!
Jesus died on the cross to free us from the laws. the laws that once taught Isreal how to live were broken down to the ground, and because of this – we were set free from the law.
anyone can recieve the salvation by faith alone.
but then why follow the laws? why do we continue to follow the laws in accordance to God’s will? were we not set free, unbound. why, then, should we continue to live by His laws?
why…
it is because, as followers of Christ Jesus. we beleive that what He did was right. and if we truly believe, then we also believe in His actions. so our lives are not reflected on the laws and how well we follow them, but rather how well we reflect Christ in our lives. We were crucified with Him, so that Christ may live through our lives. So when people look at us, they see us and they also see Christ in us.