my walk

Sophie: So how are we gonna do this?
Manman: As scandalous as possible.

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In a lot of ways, this weekend was something that gave me a lot of confirmation in the things I’ve been hearing from God. To be totally honest, I didn’t learn much from the whole conference. It was things that I’ve either already thought about, or heard. But it didn’t take away from the weekend one bit.

If you’ve been following my blog, I’ve been basically “mission”-ally focused since the new year. I’ve grown a lot with Christ, and through my interactions with Christ, God has really been putting a lot of things on my heart. And the biggest one has been evangelism, and campus ministries. Also, I was desperate to see people really understand what it means to know God. That includes all aspects of his triune-self.

This year, CC put a huge focus on ‘missions’ and it really just kick started this huge monstrous ball of passion that somehow came to a halting stop while I traveled back from China. It was nice to discover the passions of other fellowships, especially when it resounded so much with what God has been telling me. And I was encouraged to not slow down when the going gets tough, but persevere and keep running the race. To just live out my own passion and trust in God’s plans. But the confirmation of what God has been telling me, finally gave me the courage to just be more bold with my actions. To push for more changes, even though it may cause some people to feel uncomfortable.

To pray hard, and instill an active lifestyle to seek the heart of God; and I truly believe that it includes the thousands of lost sheep all around us that have yet to feel the love of God. It’s a shame I’m back in school, cause I know I’ll blog less often and with less clarity. But I’m looking forward to sharing the joy that I’ve found in Christ to anyone that asks.

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So it’s only been four days back, and I’m already falling off the blogging world.

However, it has been pretty busy these past couple of days. I can’t say that it isn’t a challenge to find time for God. School seems to have a good way to just grab you by the neck and make you worry needlessly. But, I do consider myself a bit lucky that I don’t get too uptight about school very often.

The distractions have been quite a handful. Especially upon getting internet back. So thats why I’ve only turned on the computer when I have a reason to do so.

What I seem to be more uptight and nervous about is things I do for God. Because I know I’m not qualified to be where I am at today, or to do the things I am doing. I’m fairly new to this whole thing and constantly am reminded that there are so many more capable people to stand where I am standing. But at the same time in my nervousness and fears - I realize that God has put me here for a reason and that “Godfearing-ness” isn’t a bad thing to have.

So whenever I get the feeling that I’m missing something. Or that I’m in over my head - I try to remember who’s in charge, and what I’ve experienced last term to pull me through. I’ve started a half dozen posts since I’ve gotten back. But I can’t seem to finish them, or get them finished to convey the right message I have in mind.

Anyways, if you guys want to pray for me - give me a short e-mail and I can give you more specific reply. But for now, pray that God will continue to guide the fellowship and myself to lead it to where He wants it to go. I’ve come into this term with only God’s expectation and I’m hoping He will continue to provide for me when I need it the most.

Tight on time this week, so I’ll leave it here for now.

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The richest 20% of the world accounts for over a third of the world’s income. The poorest 40% of the world accounts for less than 5% of the world’s income. Half the world, nearly three billion people, live on less than two dollars a day. And we spend it for a cup of coffee in the morning like it’s pocket change.

I was talking to an Auntie and she was telling me that I really knew how to enter this world. I live in a family with lots of stability, and loving parents. I live in an amazing place, and a house that is far from ordinary. I am healthy, and have a fully functional brain that can get me through University. And it at first, I shrugged it off like what she said didn’t have any impact on me.

But really, I could sense the envy in her remarks. And it got me thinking about how lucky I am. From the statistics, I figure I probably reside in the top 2% of the world’s economy. That’s pretty much 120 million people. And of this 2%, I am fortunate to enough to live in a family with a profession that lands in the 0.2% of Canada. All these stats must be mind numbing, but really God has blessed me with so much. And I have to be constantly reminded that everything that I have, is not mine. But God’s. He has provided for me, long before I was even born.

People that whine about not having this or that - shouldn’t complain. Cause can you imagine living as a kid in a third world country? One out of every two kids in the world starve. And it’s just a good reminder to count your blessings everyday and lead your life in a way that demands God to continue to bless you.

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